It has been a gut-wrenching tear-inducing time, filled with sadness, anguish, anger, numbness, and questions.
Things have happened that I never saw coming, and about the time I start healing from a round of challenge, another hits. And it just keeps hitting.
I realize that I did not do things wrong in three certain cases. And yet I have been attacked as though I did. And the attacks continue to happen, as if I did. But my conscious is clean. You, Abba, have set me free in these things. The Bible searched day after day and wise counselors consulted have affirmed this, too, but that does not mean I should not look in the mirror and see what I need to change and confess. I am not perfect and make mistakes and do wrong far too often.
However, just because I am innocent with three occasions, it does not mean I am innocent. I have realized how much I can do better, and a whole lot better. Moreover, it has not meant that I have not had to do a lot of soul-searching and heart searching to see how I can learn and grow, what I should change, how I can do things better, and so forth.
I am grateful for pain and innocence being that which has led me to look in the mirror, and see what all I need to change and do things differently. It has made me realize that I have far more growing that I needed to do.
I am thankful that challenging times have led me to see how much I needed to change. What a blessing! Even though it is hard. Change does not come easy. It takes a great deal of work. And being transformed into Your image is important, as it means You are helping shape me to be more effective with sharing the Good News. And that makes it all worthwhile. So people see You and not me and all my flaws.
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